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Today you must be feeling so much regrets about what you did today - the decisions you made, the path you took, the man you chose.

This morning I was convincing myself to stop and just get back on track but I wouldn’t listen. A part of me said I should just do what makes me happy so I did. I guess being happy matters most.

If you’re upset with everything that has happened in the past, remember that it made you happy anyway. This is a reminder that you shouldn’t be feeling so bad at all because it happened for a reason. Remember it was an escape from your first misery. So just be glad it happened. One day you’ll remember this just as some stupid mistake. This is the fun part of being an adult I guess, it’s okay not to be okay, it’s okay to be stupid. One day you’ll just laugh it out. =)

One of my weaknesses is a wedding. Whenever I witness one, I can’t help but be a crybaby. This morning, I was daydreaming about my wedding. Silly, right. But man, it gives me butterflies in my stomach! Haha! Anyhoo, I’m not gonna tell you here any of my wedding plans, instead, about what’s after it - marriage.

Truth is, after all the heartbreaks I’ve been through and all those separations I’ve witnessed, my outlook to marriage has been well-smirched. Like, for example, my parents’ separation after almost 10+ years of marriage. Do couples really get sick of each other after years being together? Cos I’ve witnessed that quite a lot of times, not just with my parents but also with the other couples I know.

What if I get sick with my husband? Or what if he does? That scares me, really. So I told myself I’m gonna marry somebody that I am very very very very very sure I won’t leave and won’t leave me. I know, talk is cheap, but as possible as I could, I would. I know how a divided family works, and it works bad, it feels incomplete. 

Problem is, am I gonna find that man? Is he even existing? A man that would really mean every words of our wedding vow? :( 

Last night is just the second time I had a dream about my wedding. The first was tragic cos it happened during the end of the world. LOL. Well, last night was about me being so happy about the wedding but there were these smallest diffuculties like the bra/tube I was going to use for my wedding dress! In my dream, I was rushing before the event because I couldn’t find a good pair of undergarments to use. I even cried so hard that it ruined my makeup and I had to redo it myself because I didn’t have any makeup artist :( Eventually, I used a green tube bra and redid my makeup so well.

The wedding was quite medieval-inspired, the godmothers were wearing some Mary Antoinette-ish dresses, there were also cakes and flowers that were designed so vintage looking. I couldn’t remember my wedding dress but I remember how I looked, I looked sophisticated and cute at the same time, lol. I remember my cheeks being so pink. Hahaha! So anyway, in my dream, I was so happy with the man I was marrying. It’s just so sad I didn’t see his face but I remember him wearing a black tuxedo, and he has a good body omg :))

AND!!! This is the weirdest part. In my dream, the wedding venue is called “Noretes”. From the very second I woke up, I typed it in my phone so I won’t forget it. Haha. So, I translated it in Google and it gave me “Noreste”, which is an Italian word for North East. Meh, it’s puzzling me so much.

Anyway, this creepy shit woke me up. I thought there was something creeping on me, like a cat trying to climb up on my bed. Eek, really creepy.

Remember the prayers you begged God? Remember how desperately you wanted to break away from that misery? Looks like He finally gave you the escape. But when that door closed, other doors did open, but you chose the wrong door. You knew from the very first what may happen in the end, you knew what’s behind that door: a foe that you knew you can never ever defeat, but then again you used your freewill and made a choice. 

You get the best relationships but you choose the most complicated ones. You get the best armor but you choose to fight bare alone. You get the best thing but you hunger for more.

It’s not them, it’s not Him, it’s you. You abused your freewill that it took you to the wrong path. You didn’t listen, you didn’t care. Now you’ve gone astray, no one to ask what to do, no one to guide you home.

What ya gonna do? Let time heals the hell outta you? Go with the flow? Who are you kidding, it’s gonna kill you before you know it.

People call it Valentines day, I call it Tuesday.

My feb 14th this year wasn’t so grand unlike last year. I spent the day at school but I left early with my friends. We planned to go on a picnic but it rained so we just played video games then watched a movie at home.

Around 2pm, we received a text from my cousin saying our grandmother had stroke and was rushed to the hospital. Meh.

4pm, we hit the road and visited our “tree”. Well, there’s this secret place we go every month, it has a small pond, and a tree where we engrave our names. Hehe, silly, right. Spent 2 hours there just dancing around, laughing, eating.

6pm, we went home. 

Feb 15th. Spent the whole day at school. Around 8pm, I told dad I want to go to the hospital to visit my grandmother, told him I’m just gonna drive myself there but he insisted to just fetch me. On the way to the hospital, I witnessed a motorcycle accident, I don’t know what exactly happened but I saw how the passenger’s legs got twisted. Meh, that was really really awful. Anyway, it felt that the accident should have happened to me, thank God my father fetched me. 

So okay, around 9pm, I arrived at the hospital.

The doctor said granny needs an operation due to the hemorrhage, but he told my aunts that it may not work because grandmother is too weak for it. 

Everybody was crying and I couldn’t bear see them so I stayed outside the room.

11pm, I left the hospital.

1am, I received a text msg from my father saying my grandmother passed away. Well, the fact that she’s gone isn’t sinking on me yet, it felt so unimaginable. 

Feb 16th night, me and my brother went to the wake. I was still holding my tears. 

Feb 17th, my sister went home from Lucena. 5-7pm we were at the wake.

Feb 18th, I spent the day with my sister and my best friend. We haven’t seen each other for a month so we went out and watched the movie “The Black Woman”. The movie isn’t so bad, too much creepiness.  After the movie, we had dinner at Gerry’s Grill. We had beer and we smoked, something we don’t usually do together. lol. I had 4 bottles of beer and felt a little tipsy. Awesome night, it was. 

7pm, we went to our grandmother’s wake.

Feb 19th, yesterday, was her burial. RIP, granny. I love you!

Hello. Sorry I abandoned this blog for a while, but now that I’m done with my internship, and I have all the time in the world to bum around, so I think, therefor I am back.

So many things happened I don’t even know where to start. Anyway, my wordpress blog is now officially closed so I’m just gonna stick with Tumblr now. 

Meh. I’m so not in the mood to write something down. Maybe later. Maybe. Bye!

Hello! It’s been a bajillion year since I last posted something here. Well, let’s just say I’m still busy with my school stuff to make the explanation not so complicated. Anyhoo, I’m back! And I’ve got tons of stories to tell but I’m just gonna blab about my birthday getaway.

Oh well, gone are my teenage days :( I’m now 20 years old but that’s just a number, right? He he he. So! The last 2 days of my teenage days were wicked and superb. No regrets I splurged all my savings which is about $300+. Awyeahhh. Not that I’m bragging or something but I really saved up that much of money for months just to get away on my birthday, and of course, treat myself some clothes and whatnot.

October 21st: Went major shopping with my cousin. Bought some camping stuff like jacket, rubber shoes, comfy shirts and shorts, sunglasses, hat, and a lot more I can’t remember. Totally had fun!

October 23rd: Set up all my stuff and shopped again for some food. At around 8pm, I met up with my bestfriend Belle and Tere to eat dinner together before going to Anne’s place (which is our meeting place before leaving the town)

Exactly 11pm, we left.

October 24th: We arrived at Pundaquit, Zambales at around 2am-ish and we got lost. The signs are so confusing and our map was a crap. There’s no people to ask because it’s midnight and we felt so doomed we ended up spending an hour parking in front of a resort, waiting for somebody to come by. We smoked, chatted, wished on shooting stars, walked, sang, waited for the sun to come, ate junks. After an hour or so, we decided to try walking around even though it’s hella dark. Walked, walked, walked. Turned out there’s no more path to walk on! Dead end! So yeah, we decided to leave and drive back to the route we took. The place was so dark, no single street lights. 

At around 4am, we reached a municipal city hoping there’s somebody who’s awake whom we can ask. No luck. But then!! We saw an old man walking and he was so kind to answer all our questions! We did a right route and we were actually near the mountain we’re about to hike! And we’re so lucky the old man has a boatman friend! :D But then!! The boatman won’t allow us to hike Mount Pundaquit without a guide because it’s too dangerous we might go astray. There’s no tour guides available at that time so we just asked the boatman to give us a round trip to Anawangin Cove. The round trip costed 2,000PHP, back and forth. 

4:30 AM: We reached Anawangin Cove. But it’s still dark so we waited till the sun is up. 

5AM: The sun is coming! We started setting up our tents, our camping stuff.

6AM: Had some coffee and biscuits and started wandering around the island and hiked up a small mountain which was very very very steep.

The beach, the white sand, the lake, the pine trees, the mountains…Ahhhh surreal!

8AM: Had a breakfast! Canned goods + Rice.

9AM-11AM: We started swimming!! :)

12PM: We haven’t had any sleep so we all slept under the sun. My sleep wasn’t so good since I felt so sick. Probably because of my wet clothes plus the cold breeze so I started shaking and Teressa had to give me her jacket and cover me with some blankets. 

2PM: I woke up and felt a little better. Then we waited til the sun is down to go swimming again. Yeah, I’m too ecstatic to make notice of my fever. Hehe!

Around 6pm, we had some rum. We all got tipsy ~_~

I will no longer tell all the details because this post is getting boring. Summary of the rest of the day: FUN.

October 25th. 12AM, My bestfriend Teressa woke me up saying it’s time for our bon fire! So, I was still sleepy when I got up and didn’t notice the 20 cupcakes with 20 candles, 12 party hats and some food on a table beside me. When I saw it, I was so sleepy I can’t tell if it’s true or I was just dreaming!! LOL! Surprise bday party, it was! 

Summary of the night: Cold night. Bon fire. Wishing stars! Gossips about teachers and classmates. LOL. BBQ. Crabs. Junks. Cigars. Songs. Dancing. And a lot more. Slept around 4am and woke up at about 8am.

Had a good breakfast then went swimming by the lake. The lake is my favorite part of the island. It has clean water running from the mountain. 

The day was superb. We fished, we caught crabs, clams and cute snails. We cooked the crabs and the fishes for lunch! YUM!

The day was totally wonderful! :)

We left the island at exactly 4pm and went home safely at around 8pm. 

My 20th birthday is now my favorite birthday. Hehe! Thank you, Lord!

PS: If you’re planning to go Anawangin Cove, you can contact our super kind boatman, Mang Ariel: 09162868353. He’s a good man and he made sure we’re all set before leaving us in Anawangin cove. 

Warning: People say the island is a little mysterious at times. Don’t forget to pray! And don’t swim far from the shore. Also, bring extra food and water. There’s a store in the island but their products’ prices are doubled/tripled.

PPS: Please bear with my grammatical errors, I’m still sick and too lazy to correct them all. HEHE!