Today’s pretty rough, so is yesterday. Well, when I wrote my previous post, yesterday was really a good day, but it did turn bad just before I sleep. So here’s what happened. Me and my sister had a huge fight. Well, to make the looooong story short, it started when her daughter (my niece) kept waking up and crying at around 11pm and she’s too sleepy to get up and pick her up so my mom represented to do it, but she refuses but mom kept on insisting. I don’t really know what’s up to my sister cos she then started yelling at my mom like she’s some fucking boss. I tried to keep my temper under control but I just can’t stand hearing them fight so yeah, we then had a fight. Bla bla bla. After some curses and hurtful rants, she then bawled out my utmost secret that I’ve kept for so many years. My mom heard it. PUTANGINA. I was so furious that my body was literally shaking, my voice was breaking and I was so bursting into tears. 

I fell asleep crying around 1am. 

In the morning, August 20th, I remembered what happened that night. Sana panaginip na lang yung nangyari. Sana pwedeng ulitin yung eksena kagabi. Pero hindi na e. I then prayed. I asked God to calm my heart and clear all my negative thoughts. Still, I was in deep depression the whole morning. And since my cousin/bff was so eager to help me out, she forced me to go shopping, which really something I just can’t say no to. So yes, I withdrawn all my money from my atm and splurged them all. I bought Chippy some shampoos and a small dog bed. Then I bought myself 2 sandals, some underwears, a watch, a cookie monster shirt, pens, shorts, and some toiletries. After shopping, me and bff went to the school library to meet Che and my other groupmates to do our thesis. Bla bla bla. I had a really great time with them. 

At around 5pm, they decided to go home. But since I really don’t feel like going home, I forced them to go with me somewhere just so I can kill time. So we went back to the mall and ate some Teriyaki and something I can’t remember the name. After it, there’s this Orange Salon we visited and we had mani-pedi. Ugh, it went so painful and fugly. I’m so never going back there. Hehe. 

8pm, we went home. So here I am, on the bed, thinking about what may happen after that fucking fight because I’m so never ever going to talk to my sister. Seriously. I hate her to bits.

PS: that secret is something that could really ruin my life. Clue: not something about my V-card. LOL.

PSS: I’ve been keeping myself away from this house and from my mom just so we can’t talk about that fckn secret. I’m dead scared. 

Today: ★